Hope everyone around the world is taking utmost precautions to stay safe and healthy.
I was quite occupied with my Office work lately and did not get time to write, however, this thought was crossing my mind since last few days and here i am writing on this topic: Understanding Self.
First of all whatever thoughts i am putting here are totally mine and i m not here to support or contradict anyone.
Lots of time lately a thought came to my mind: why i have been born as a human being and what differentiates me from animals, atleast till the age of forty i have lived a life which in short term can be called goalless, i was never too serious about my professional life and my personal life was going ok with the able assistance of my parents.
Looking at the people around me who have to work really hard to earn a decent living i would consider myself extremely lucky that i never ever lacked atleast what we call essential necessities of life even though i never ever worked really hard to earn them,however,even then at some point in time i started to realize that may be i m in a job where i m not able to push myself to the hilt and consequently i m not getting enough monetary rewards, all of a sudden i started becoming more materialistic and started getting too desirous.
Without careful thought i came to a conclusion that may be i can get what i desire for only when i will start something on my own, i quit my job and with one of my old friends ventured into a small time business, initially for few months it was going fine and i thought may be i took a nice decision of quitting my job but within a span of couple of years the business failed and i was virtually in no mans land , i was at level zero. I had to go through lot of mental trauma post that period,however, i made a new beginning, got employed again and started to see things differently now, i realised that every individual who comes to this world has a definite karmic baggage associated with him or her, some people are born with a silver spoon and some have to work tirelessly to make ends meet, i also realised that the moment i started becoming too materialistic and became too desirous i ended up making some nasty decisions,however, it does not mean that you should not strive for more but you must also understand that you need to be realistic and practical in life and just efforts are in your hands and not the end result, previously i had made an illusionary world wherein i thought i will have loads of money and i will have all the comforts possible which ultimately bombed.
Lately i have started to read a little bit more and have understood one fact that we should ultimately strive for happiness and peace, i do not spend time on meditating except for reciting the Hanuman Chalisa almost daily , i personally feel common to most of the spiritual gurus is that they focus too much on the process or methods of meditation rather than the intent, i feel intent is more important than the process or method, i feel God has given everyone who is born a human a chance for self realisation, most of us falter because somehow we get lost in the process or method, however, i feel every individual has a one to one relationship and understanding with God and every individual is unique , we should continue in this quest for self realisation and we have unlimited books, scriptures which can help us understand ourselves precisely.
I do not advocate having any spiritual guru or teacher because you know yourself better than anyone else does , besides you also can interpret the meaning of scriptures based on your logic and understanding.
Finally as i said earlier these are all my individual thoughts and every person is wise enough to make an informed decision.
Stay Safe and Stay Healthy