To spread his message to the four corners of the earth Sri Ramakrishna Paramahansa needed a strong instrument. With his frail body and delicate limbs he could not make great journeys across wide spaces and such an instrument was found in Narendranath Dutta, his beloved Naren later known to the world as Swami Vivekananda. Even before meeting Narendranath, Sri Ramakrishna Paramahansa had seen him in a vision as a sage immersed in the meditation of the Absolute, who at his request had agreed to take human birth to assist him in his work.
Narendra was born in Calcutta on January 12 , 1863, of an aristocratic Kayastha family. His mother was stepped in the great Hindu epics, and his father, a distinguished attorney of the Calcutta Hugh Court, was an agnostic about religion, a friend of the poor , and a mocker at social conventions. Even in his boyhood and youth Narendra possessed great physical courage and presence of mind, a vivid imagination, deep power of thought, keen intelligence, an extraordinary memory, a love of truth, a passion for purity, a spirit of independence , and a tender heart. Even as a child he practised meditation and showed great power of concentration. Though free and passionate in word and action, he took the vow of austere religious chastity and never allowed the fire of purity to be extinguished by the slighest defilement of body or soul.
As he read in college the rationalistic Western philosphers of the nineteenth century, his boyhood faith in God and religion was unsettled. He would not accept religion on mere faith; he wanted demonstration of God. He wanted a Guru, who by embodying perfection in the flesh would still the commotion of his soul. Attracted by the magnetic personality of Keshab, he joined the Brahmo Samaj and became a singer in its choir. But in the Samaj he did not find the Guru who could say that he had seen God.
In a state of mental conflict and torture of soul, Narendra came to Sri Ramakrishna Paramahansa at Dakshineswar. He was then eighteen years of age and had been in college for two years. He entered the Master’s (Sri Ramakrishna Paramahansa) room accompanied by some light-hearted friends. At Sri Ramakrishna’s request, he sang a few songs, pouring his whole soul into them, and the Master went into Samadhi(Trance). A few minutes later Sri Ramakrishna Paramahansa suddenly left his seat, took Narendra by the hand, and led him to the screened verandah north of his room. They were alone. Addressing Narendra most tenderly, as if he were a friend of long acquaintance, the Master said: Ah! You have come very late. Why have you been so unkind as to make me wait all these days? My ears are tired of hearing the futile words of worldly men. Oh, how have I longed to pour my spirit into the heart of someone fitted to receive my message!”. He talked thus sobbing all the time. Grasping Narendra’s hand, he asked him to come again, alone, and very soon. Narendra was startled. ” What is this I have come to see?” he said to himself. ” He must be stark mad. Why, I am the son of Viswanath Dutta. How dare he speak this way to me?”.
When they returned to the room and Narendra heard the Master speaking to others, he was surprised to find in his words an inner logic, a striking sincerity, and a convincing proof of his spiritual nature. In answer to Narendra’s question, “Sir, have you seen God?” the Master said: “Yes, I have seen God. I have seen Him more tangibly than I see you. I have talked to him more intimately than I am talking to you.” Continuing, the Master said: ” But my child, who wants to see God? People shed jugs of tears for money, wife and children. But if they would weep for God for only one day they would surely see Him.” Narendra was amazed. These words he could not doubt. This was the first time he had ever heard a man saying that he had seen God. But he could not reconcile these words of the Master with the scene that had taken place on the verandah only a few minutes before. He concluded that Sri Ramakrishna Paramahansa was a monomaniac , and returned home rather puzzled in mind.
During his second visit, about a month later, suddenly, at the touch of the Master, Narendra felt overwhelmed and saw the walls of the room and everything around him whirling and vanishing. ” What are you doing to me ?” he cried in terror. ” I have my father and mother at home.” He saw his own ego and the whole universe almost swallowed in a nameless void. With a laugh the Master easily restored him. Narendra thought he might have been hypnotized, but he could not understand how a monomaniac could cast a spell over the mind of a strong person like himself. He returned home more confused than ever, resolved to be henceforth on his guard before this strange man.
But during his third visit Narendra fared no better. This time, at the Master’s touch, he lost consciousness entirely. While he was still in that state, Sri Ramakrishna questioned him concerning his spiritual antecedents and whereabouts, his mission in this world, and duration of his mortal life. The answers confirmed what the Master himself had known and inferred. Among other things, he came to know that Narendra was a sage who had already attained perfection , and that the day he learnt his real nature he would give up his body in yoga , by an act of will.
A few more meetings completely removed from Narendra’s mind the last traces of the notion that Sri Ramakrishna Paramahansa might be a monomaniac or wily hypnotist.His integrity,purity,renunciation, and unselfishness were beyond question. But Narendra could not accept a man , an imperfect mortal, as his Guru. As a member of the Brahmo Samaj, he could not believe that a human intermediary was necessary between man and God.Moreover, he openly laughed at Sri Ramakrishna’s visions as hallucinations.Yet in the secret chamber of his heart he bore a great love for the Master.
The Master wanted to train Narendra in the teachings of the non-dualistic Vedanta philosphy. But Narendra, because of his Brahmo upbringing, considered it wholly blasphemous to look on man as one with his Creator. One day at the temple garden he laughingly said to a friend : “How silly! This jug is God! This cup is God! Whatever we see is God! And we too are God! Nothing could be more absurd.” Sri Ramakrishna came out of his room and gently touched him. Spellbound, he immediately perceived that everything in the world was indeed God. A new universe opened around him. Returning home in a dazed state , he found there too that the food, the plate, the eater himself, the people around him, were all God. When he walked in the street, he saw that the horses, the streams of people, the buildings, were all Brahman. He could hardly go about his day’s business. His parents became anxious about him and thought him ill. And when the intensity of the experience abated a little, he saw the world as a dream. Walking in the public square, he would strike his head against the iron railings to know whethey they were real .It took him a number of days to recover his normal self. He had a foretaste of the great experiences yet to come and realized that the words of the Vedanta were true.
At the beginning of 1884 Narendra’s father suddenly died of heart failure, leaving the family in a state of utmost poverty. There were six or seven mouths to feed at home.Creditors were knocking at the door. Actually starving and barefoot, Narendra searched for a Job but without success. He began to doubt whether anywhere in the world there was such a thing as unselfish sympathy. Two rich women made evil proposals to him and promised to put and end to his distress; but he refused them with contempt.
Narendra began to talk of his doubt of the very existence of God. His friends thought he had become an atheist and piously circulated gossips adducing unmentionable motives for his unbelief. His moral character was maligned. Even some of the Master’s disciples partly believed the gossip, and Narendra told these to their faces that only a coward believed in God through fear of suffering or hell. But he was distressed to think that Sri Ramakrishna Paramahansa, too, might believe these false reports. His pride revolted. He said to himself: “What does it matter? If a man’s good name rests on such slender foundations, I don’t care.” But later on he was amazed to learn that the Master had never lost faith in him.
The moment came when Narendra’s distress reached its climax. He had gone the whole day without food. As he was returning home in the evening he could hardly lift his tired limbs. He sat down in front of a house in sheer exhaustion, too weak even to think.His mind began to wander.Then, suddenly, a divine power lifted the veil over his soul . He found the solution of the problem of the coexistence of divine justice and misery, the presence of suffering in the creation of a blissful providence. He felt bodily refreshed, his soul was bathed in peace, and he slept serenely.
Narendra now realized that he had a spiritual mission to fulfil. He resolved to renounce the world, as his grandfather had renounced it, and he came to Sri Ramakrishna Paramahansa for his blessing. But even before he had opened his mouth, the Master knew what was in his mind and wept bitterly at the thought of separation. ” I know you cannot lead a worldly life, ” he said, “but for my sake live in the world as long as I live.”
One day, soon after, Narendra requested Sri Ramakrishna Paramahansa to pray to the Divine Mother to remove his poverty. Sri Ramakrishna Paramahansa bade him pray to Her himself, for She would certainly listen to his prayer. Narendra entered the shrine of Kali. As he stood before the image of the Mother , he beheld Her as a living Goddess, fready to give wisdom and liberation. Unable to ask Her for petty worldly things, he prayed only for knowledge and renunciation, love and liberation. The Master rebuked him for his failure to ask the Divine Mother to remove his poverty and sent him back to the temple. But Narendra standing in Her presence, again forgot the purpose of his coming. Thrice he went to the temple at the bidding of the Master, and thrice he returned, having forgotten in Her presence why he had come. He was wondering about it when it suddenly flashed in his mind that this was all the work of Sri Ramakrishna Paramahansa; so now he asked the Master himself to remove his poverty, and was assured that his family would not lack simple food and clothing.
This was a very rich and significant experience for Narendra. It taught him that Sakti, the Divine Power, cannot be ignored in the world and that in the relative plane the need of worshipping a Personal God is imperative. Sri Ramakrishna Paramahansa was overjoyed with the conversion. The next day, sitting almost on Narendra’s lap, he said to a devotee, pointing first to himself, then to Narendra: ” I see I am this , and again that. really i feel no difference. A stick floating in the Ganges seems to divide the water;but in reality the water is one. Do you see my point? Well whatever is, is the Mother-isn’t that so?” In later years Narendra would say : ” Sri Ramakrishna Paramahansa was the only person who, from the time he met me, believed in me uniformly throughout. Even my mother and brothers did not. It was his unwavering trust and love for me that bound me to him for ever. He alone knew how to love. Worldly people only make a show of love for selfish ends.”
Originally taken from ” The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna” by Mahendranath Gupta, His Disciple.